You, Me & Baby Foxtail Makes 3: March 2013

My Little Irish Doodle Bugs.

So this is great. I just found out the most exciting news.... I am a 1/8 French. I guess my Great Grandmother on my Fathers side is French. So this makes me 1/2 Portuguese 1/4 Norwegian 1/8 Welsh and 1/8 French. Very exciting! I knew I had French blood in me.

So we have made it to 7 months with this little bug. I can't believe how time has flown by so fast but also seems like such a fog in my brain. He is growing up so fast. I feel like we can communicate with him now, like when I tell him Sage ( calm down) he listens ( sometimes) when I sign with him he nods his head for the answer and when he wants to lay down he looks at me and puts his head on the floor or my shoulder. Its kinds of cool.

He has given me a run for my money and he is insuring that he does not have any siblings apparently.

I don't know what to do but he has Chronic teething ( words from the pediatrician) which means he is in Chronic pain, drooling all the time and biting on anything he can get his hands on. So as you can imagine this is no fun.

On a crazy note I actually got pregnant again. AW!!!! It's amazing how I can feel so irresponsible as an almost 30 year old married for 5 1/2 years women. Well it happened I was so freaked out to tell Joshua and the realization that I was not sure if I would be in the right state of mind to have another one. I mean how do people have multiple children. I am so confused why you would want to put yourself through this pain over and over again. (LOL) Well this came to a short end the day I actually told Joshua about 6 hours later I had a miscarriage. For me this is a common occurrence but for the first time I was so relieved. I am sure I don't want anymore kiddos even though I love the crap out of Jasper. But we are planning on coming back to this question in 2 years. That is when we will officially decide if we are making a permanent decision or not.

I know I may come across harsh and a bit crazy but I am just being honest. This is how I deal with life. To be an open book with how I feel and my emotions. But the people who know me know that I say what I feel at all times when I want to say it.

OK so on a brighter note we had a great Month full of fun and adventure. We went to OMSI, The Portland Art Museum a couple times and Bend. I worked like 50 hours last month which felt so good to be doing what I love for a small bit of time. I have some events coming up this month as well. My parents came to visit with my Moms Best friend Lillian ( BFF's since 2nd grade) We ate are way through Portland and I am still paying for it. :) So much fun with all of them. As always.

Joshua is getting so close to being done with his Early Childhood Special Education License and we have to make a decision weather to stay in Portland for another year to get his endorsement for Autism or to go back to Bend and take a longer time to get all of that. What to do?????

I really want to go back to work, this stay at home mommy stuff is really hard. I mean I worked for Gorden Ramsey in London 16 to 18 hour days and that was easier than this. But I do get a lot more joy and love out of my little guy than being yelled and pans thrown at me at by men I can't stand.

Who knows, everyone says it gets easier. I know now why people don't tell you all of this. Its because we probably wouldn't get pregnant in the first place and that would be sad to not have my love bug in my life. I do love him like crazy and Joshua and I have this amazing bond together that will never be broken. We made this beautiful little man and you can't begin to explain it. But I can explain how tired I am. Well until next Month. So far 7 months is going good, I am off to the gym while Joshua finishes a 134 page report :( no fun for him.